The Bible tells us that our sins pain Gods heart. It doesn't say that it bothers him or that it annoys him, it says that it pains him. Not only does the bible say that our sin pain his heart, but it says that it breaks his heart...
I've never had a broken heart before. But I've imagined the feeling, and I'm not going to lie, it scares me. The thought of anyone I am close to hurting me so badly, breaking my trust, and essentially treating so many significant moments that we shared together as unimportant... scares me.
But the reality is, I've done this to God. I've sinned, and I have treated everything he has ever done for me as if it was so unimportant. When I hurt him in this way, I have essentially stomped on all those precious, intimate moments we have had together and acted like they were nothing. And this hurts him so deeply. I have truly broken his heart.
But here is the difference between me and God (one of so many).
If someone hurts me like this, if someone breaks my trust and throws away so much of what we have built together... Chances are, I won't be standing at my front door waiting and excited to welcome them back into my life. I just don't have that kind of trust for people. And if that trust is ever rebuilt, it's going to take a very very long time to happen. This is an area of my life I am working on, and I God is helping me with everyday.
But this is not the case with God. I hurt him all time. My sins have pained his heart deeply. Time and time again I have failed God. I have allowed sin into my life, and I have allowed it to camp out there. This has hurt my relationship with my heavenly father. And once I had realized the terrible mistake I had made I have run back to his front door EVERY SINGLE TIME.
Here's the difference between me and God. He left his door open. He could have left me in my shame and my guilt. He could have told me how much I had hurt him and how disappointed he was in me, but never once was this the case. He doesn't bring up my past mistakes and failures. On the contrary, He covered me with his grace and his mercy. He poured his crazy, unconditional, relentless love all over me. He has an unending, over-abounding supply of forgiveness. Everyday that I walk with God, I am even ore overwhelmed by his tenderness and his affection for me.
Wanna know something else? This is the awesome part. This goes for ALL of us. God is desperately wanting and ready to have a relationship with you. Your past mistakes are no obstacle for him. You can't scare him away with yesterdays sins. His affection for you is limitless and He is ready for you NOW Ready to show you a better way, to give your life new meaning and new purpose. He is ready to show you that crazy love and amazing grace. I can tell you this from experience, life with God is so much better than life without him. Walking with God is like taking a new breathe of fresh air every single day. He is constant and he is good. Let him show you what your life could be like with him in it.